to all the FAKERS in this world who are STILL living...

let me just state to you all the things you haven't realized..

be ready for it will totally torture you and your expectations..

these are only 10 out of a hundred things i wanted to say...

1. Not all the time you can MANIPULATE me. coZ i already know your color i am just fooling around with you for you have nobody to play with.

2.YOU are NOT the BEST coz i am way BETTER than you. i just hide my true skills and abilities so that you can be happy with your little dream land.

3. You've said a lot about me, criticized me and even made me feel the pain of death, but none of those are gonna make me fall and GIVE UP. i know that i am more WORTHY to be existing than you are.

4. I am NOT PERFECT and so ARE YOU. don't be so full of yourself. let me just remind you once again that you are NOTHING but a VERY SAD being.

5. Don't PRETEND to care. it's getting on my nerves seeing you trying so hard to care for me. don't do it. you won't make me feel better anyway..

6. If you don't like me, just say so 'coz THE FEELING is MUTUAL.

7. Don't try to put me down 'coz you're never gonna. if you still love your life then just get BUSY with it. DON'T MESS with ME...

8. If i really want a friend to be with me and there's only you living in this world, well, I JUST RATHER DIE ALONE than to spend my time smelling your foul scent and seeing the ugly color of your heart.

9. You don't know everything about me. so don't assume to know me well. 'COZ YOU WILL NEVER EVER UNDERSTAND HOW GOOD I AM for you will always think that you are ABOVE ME. well, keep dreaming for it's the only thing that you can do.

10. lastly, try to accept all your FLAWS. Try NOT to be SOMEBODY. 'coz in the way you act, you are becoming a LAUGHING STOCK that tries so hard to be person but doesn't know how to act like one.

that's all for today. if you are reading this you faker, beware. coz your END is NEAR.

haha...

i don't know what have i done to you to make me feel like hell

but let me just remind you of your unpleasant smell

i thought that it was only my mind that tells

that you are nothing but a lonely shell.

you thought you are great but that's just a lie

you just let your imaginations fly so HIGH

well its time for you to say to that dream goodbye

coz sooner or later you'll fall down and cry.

i may not be the best but at least i am useful

and you have done nothing but to be a fool

actually, you need not to be so cruel

coz for me being you is cool.

now you have occupied two-thirds of my hatred

yes i am having some regrets

for i thought we could be good friends

but you still dissapoint me until the end.........

days seems to passed by me quickly. little by little, the time is healing the wound that was left in my heart. for only time can heal the wound of a broken heart. it's not the first time that i felt this pain in my heart. actually, i always torture my heart. it always took the consequences of my failed love story. but for once in my life, i have felt so much happiness. my heart was very happy. everything in my world was happy. but those joyful feelings only lasted for a while. he came in to my life unexpectedly. and unexpectedly he made in an impact to me. but then he just left without any hesitation. no wonder i feel so much pain when he left. but i am moving on now. i have so much many things waiting for me in the future. but i'll definitely treasure every memory he left with me. and for sure, someday, when our paths cross, i can proudly say to myself that "I haVe oNce Loved You, But NEveR aGaiN".

hOw cOme tHat You LieD?

teLLiNg me you'LL be By My siDE

aND wHEn i'M suPPoSeD to DiE

You diDn'T eVEn cRy

You JusT MaKe a sMiLe

iS tHat YouR sTyLe

oFpuTTiNg ME in ViLe?

tHat'S wHy we NeveR ReCoNciLed

'coZ fOr You i'Ve exiLed.

yOu wAnT ME

NoT beCaUse You CaRe fOr Me

yOu waNted ME

bEcaUse you waNt tO Own ME

yOu waNt ME tO be YouR sLave

i'M soRRy tHat's aLL i GaVe

'cOz fOr Me You'Re Not BraVe

wiThoUt Me, You wOn'T be SaVed.

You HAve LieD

PreTeNDed to Be By My siDe

i aM so tiRed

tHat's wHy i DiEd...

YoU aRe My MasTer, yOu aRe My God

bUt wHy aRe You MaKinG Me oDD?

CaN'T yOu see tHe dRippiNg of My bLood?

aNd NoW, You'Ve tRappEd Me in tHis fRauD.

i aDore You, You aRe My iNsPiRatiOn

YoU caN feeL aLL oF mY deVotiOn

BuT do We sTiLL HaVe a CoNNeCtioN?

iT miGht BE JusT aN iLLusiOn.

YoU aRe My LifE, yOu aRe My deSceNdaNt

i'Ve foLLoweD aLL tHe RuLes tHat You wAnT

bUt wHy aRe You BEinG sO aRrogaNt?

'cOz YoU waNt to BE so abUndaNt?

yEs. i'M sTuPid, NaiVe, fuLL oF iNNoceNce

bUt do You wHaT is LiFe's eSSeNce?

iT's sHowiNg peOpLe BenEvoLence

iNsteaD yOU KEeP BriNgiNg VioLeNCe.

i CaN'T TaKe YoUr cRuELty

You Gave NotHinG BuT misErY

i ThOugHt we'Re a LittLe HaPPy faMiLy

Now, My aNxiEty is KiLLiNG Me.

paRdoN ME, bUt i CaN'T heLp bUt tO AbHoR

You HaVe seEn Me sOre

But You JusT cLoseD tHe dooR

sO, i Am NoT YouRs aNyMorE.....

 

 

i WaS uNhaPPy

TheN yOu SaT BesiDe Me

YoU'Re siLenTLy sMiLiNg

wHiLe i'M jusT heRe siTTiNg

We NeVeR haD a cOnVersaTiOn

NoT a WoRd Nor a CoNNecTiOn

My HeaRt iS JuMpiNg

ThOugH wE NeVeR saiD aNyThiNg

i KnoW iT's NoT Me tHat You WaNt

MaYbe tHat's wHy YOu'rE sO disTanT

tHeN wHy aM i feeLiNg tHis waY?

i waNt YoU to sTaY

i'M OuT Of My MinD

tHinKinG You CaN Be MinE

wE CaN be sOuLmaTes

BeCaUsE we'Re cReaTed by faTe

BuT ThaT's wHat i BeLieVe

sOoNer Or LaTer You'LL LeaVe

BuT i waS haPPy

eVeR siNce You saT besiDe Me

i was walking the road of my life on my own when suddenly i felt like something in my heart was missing. i can feel the cold air embracing me with the loneliness i felt. i never imagined the things that i have can be lost to me forever. in my whole entire life, i never felt so alone. there are lots of people i can be with but it seems that they are not visible for me to see. i seek the happiness i felt with the friends that i made in the past. i don't if it's possible to forget them, but if i did, believe me, i'll never forgive myself. i am not telling you that i am not happy right now with the new friends that i managed to have because if i told you that, i am a HYPOCRITE. but it seems to me that no matter what happens, i still miss my friends!! but life can never be perfect as we all expect it would be. i don't know what life brings for us. but i believe, that God will always guide us to see the right people that we have to meet in the future. and i've realized about friendship that it is not on how you people are often together, it is being with the person always.... no time, no distance and no place can ever break the friendship once it is established with love, care and honesty.....

i MiSS YoU gUys sO MucH!!